I am surrounded by so much doomsday chatter. I have been “awake” for years in the sense that I have traveled down many, many rabbit holes. I have chased so many conspiracies that my tin foil hat is wearing out. I have had to face so many fallacies that I accepted as truths. It hurts my brain some days. I literally get a headache. One of the worst truths for me was that our government allows deaths in the thousands as “collateral damage” and actually thinks it is okay. They expend American lives, any lives for that matter, in order to stay in charge. To have control. And as always, “follow the money.”
The image above is how I feel more often than not. I see some pretty horrific stuff that today is taken as normal. Well, the MSM and power brokers want us to accept what is abnormal as the new normal. And it just is not normal. There is a cute saying these days: “Normal is not coming back – Jesus is.” And you know, I would be okay with that. Truly. I used to panic and say that I wasn’t ready yet; my kids still had lives to live and my grandkids are just getting going. But the more I see evil just parading around and no one really caring, or even noticing, I think I would be okay with the Second Coming happening any day now.
“For thou art with me” gives me such peace. Prayer is what is saving me from insanity. Insanity in the sense of worrying myself sick. “Our Thoughts Determine Our Lives” is a book by Elder Thaddeus. It changed my life. I have referenced the book in prior posts, so you can get details by searching through my blog posts. But suffice it to say, what we think about all the time can be personified in our lives. We can make our fantasies become reality. Think about it. You know someone who is personified as a “negative Nelly” or an “Eore” character. Always depressed or worried or upset. Then there are those who are like “Pig Pen” in the Charlie Brown comics. I always felt he represented chaos and disorder, not just being a dirty kid. We all have people in our lives that bring chaos with them.
I am working hard at finding my peace and keeping it front and center, without the fear taking over. I know that evil is surrounding us all. The earth is Satan’s domain. I know that. But I also know God is with me, with us, and He will not abandon His people. But that begs the question: Who are God’s people? I just do not accept that all the aberrance on display at children’s story hour are God’s people. They flaunt their disregard for what God calls us to in Scripture. Certainly many, many “woke” pastors in all sects of faith are not objecting to this behavior, but rather promoting acceptance of it. As a Catholic for most of my life, I have heard, “Love the sinner, hate the sin.” And I do believe that. However, when someone knows it is a sin and embraces it regardless of knowing, then I have a hard time loving the sinner. I have friends who are gay but who are devoutly Christian and do not act physically on their feelings. They know it is a sin and put God first. We actually hang out with them a lot. People assume they are “living in sin,” but they are not. They can live in the same home and not be committing a sin. But with all the pride parades this weekend, sinfulness and nudity were on full display. God is not smiling on that. And our wonderful He/She Health Director, Admiral Rachel Levine, just announced He/She wants to extend Pride Month. Good heavens, when will we just say “NO” to all of it???
It is images like the one above that give me pause. I believe this assault on our sense of right and wrong is on purpose and has its demonic aspects. This shirt kinda reinforces that. And I see all sorts of things, because I go down so many rabbit holes, that keep adding up and causing me to be fearful. “The end will not be for everyone” is an adage in the conspiracy theory world. And that scares me, too. I know some cataclysmic thing is coming. And it’s not in the decades-away future. It will be soon. And I think, I feel, it will be sooner than we think. So much supports that feeling, that even if I could, it would take a hefty blog post to list all the reasons! All I can say is prepare. Get your heart right with God. With whatever higher power you believe in. Get your finances secure. Stock up on batteries and flashlights, food, water, blankets, etc. Because what is coming will affect the world. The powers that be (less than 1% of our society) are worried too many of us are realizing what has been going on for centuries, and we are starting to resist their control.
As much as it may offend you, we sort of live in ant farms. There are higher power beings, people, who control the world. We are allowed to feel free, but are we truly free? We can move around and live our lives within guidelines. We are public-schooled – which are truly just indoctrination centers – and we swallow the narrative. We strive for success within boundaries. The sky is the limit (I won’t even go into flat earth here. But you should look into it. Just saying.). John D. Rockefeller donated over $180 million in 1902 to the General Education Board, establishing Public Education. Rockefeller famously said “I don’t want a nation of thinkers. I want a nation of workers.” The system was set up to give students just enough information to function in society, but not rise above where they were.
Here is a quote by Frederick T. Gates, one of the members of the General Education Board :
“In our dream, we have limitless resources and the people yield themselves with perfect docility to our molding hand. We shall not search for embryo great artists, painters, musicians nor lawyers, doctors, preachers, politicians, statesmen, of whom we have an ample supply…The task we set before ourselves is very simple as well as a very beautiful one, to train these people as we find them to a perfectly ideal life just where they are… ”
Mocking the ability of people to think for themselves, and simply not encouraging success outside their narrative of docile workers; workers who would be happy punching a time card and dutifully following the societal norms set before them. Rinse. Repeat. And what comes from that are people who accept what is before them. They have lost their ability to critically think. They don’t question – they accept. Because they prefer acceptance by their peers over standing in the raging waters of sin and simply saying, “No, my family and I serve the Lord. We will not comply.” And that is why so many people believe people like me are crazy. I question. I stand outside the norm and I say “No!” I will not comply.” I will not become like an automaton, dutifully performing my daily skill set duties. I will not be another ant in your farm!
God wins. In my heart I know that. I feel it deep inside my bones. But to get from here to there, that’s where I feel this intense fear. Because to get there, it will be a time of immense trial for every single, living, person. And I truly see trials beginning. Evil has always been with us; the earth was given to Satan by God. He forbid Satan access to Heaven for his disobedience. So all Satan can do is try and thwart God in His heavenly activities. And he does that by trying to steal souls away from God. God loves us more than anything. He created us in HIS IMAGE. We are like God. In all our diversity, we are God’s children. God loves variety. Look at the earth He created for us to live in. It is a diverse place. I prefer mountains and lakes, streams and valleys; and accompanied by milder summers and snowy winters. I am not a desert person. But millions prefer living in a desert, hot, climate. Diversity. What a blessing! Still, Satan prowls around, and when we are weakest, when he senses sin, he attacks. And those little voices encouraging sinful behavior, well those are Satan and his little demons tempting us away from God. Satan now has TV time. His evil is on our screens 24/7 – in the name of inclusion, diversity, fairness. Perversion has to be tolerated to show how accepting we are of diverse behaviors and beliefs. That is where we are screwing up. Evil has been here since the beginning, only now it is openly on display. A recent intellect said something like, “Western culture exhibits the depravity of excluding faith, morals, and God, from modern culture.” We are a culture sprinting away from God and most of the “woke culture” is all about that.
When transgenderism is accepted (as in that activist above) as normal, society is going downhill. If anyone ever researches history these days, they will note that most cultures last about 150 years. That’s usually the length of time it takes to degrade and fall apart. Search out information on famous cultures that are no longer around. The easiest is Rome. They had football stadiums (coliseums) where the perversion of the day was on display. Homosexuality and all other forms of perversion were the height of societal acceptance. It was a very perverse time in history. And it vanished.
When fear is prominent in your life, it is said that you are close to finding God. Fear itself is not evil. Be fearful of what can steal your soul. Be aware. Be vigilant. Keep your oil lamps full. Be prepared. Be courageous in the face of evil. Stand firmly for God and His precepts. Acknowledge your fear and give it to God. Pray always. God wins!
I am not so doom and gloom that I cannot enjoy life and all the joy placed before me. I appreciate my blessings and I relish in them. God has truly blessed me. But in my inner self, I am cowering in fear. Because I know God is a just and powerful, almighty and omnipotent God. Evil will not be spared. When God cleans house, He goes into every nook and cranny; every piece of evil is lifted out of its hiding place. I just so do not want to be caught up in His divine whisk broom. Brought into the Divine Light of judgment, knowing my weakness brought me there. Just yesterday I broke a birthday gift for my husband from his sister. And I was so angry at my clumsiness that I took the name of the Lord in vain. And that’s when I stopped and wept, and begged forgiveness. I’ve been so caught up in my cultural life, and lax in my spiritual life lately, that cussing rolled right off my tongue. No thought, until after it was out. And I felt worse than I had about breaking the engraved glass my sister-in-law had sent. I had gone against a Commandment from God. It’s one of the”Big 10″ you know. If only we all went by the 10 Commandments!!!
So to wrap up and end this, I fear for the future. And sometimes I cower in fear. I am nowhere near perfect. I am flawed all over the place. But God loves his children. As flawed as we are, if we seek forgiveness and we seek God above all things, He will save us. God loves us. And God wins. Always.
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