“Pain doesn’t just show up in our lives for no reason. It’s a sign that something needs to change.”
Our chiropractor has a great saying on his website, “First, your body will gently whisper to warn you. Unheeded, it speaks with greater urgency. If ignored, it may escalate into full-fledged shouting! And guess what? August was the month of great shouting. You know, it has been a series of lessons for me. (1) I am not getting younger; (2) I don’t bounce back like I did in my youth, and (3) I need to pay better attention to the whispers before the shouting drowns out everything else. I have gone from my chiropractor to my NP (Nurse Practioner) and back to the Chiropractor. My NP’s approach is nutritionally based, with some therapies and modalities. Then she progressively gets more intensely involved. And now we are in the stage of pain control and further investigation (an MRI coming soon to a shoulder/back/neck near me!!). And I am finally getting some relief. The medications have really helped, but still not enough that I can sleep in my bed! But the pain has lessened and allows me to not be so foggy. I feel like I have lost a month! It is hard to focus when you cannot see through the pain to just get comfortable in one position where there is no pain. It has been a trial.
But another lesson is to see the world at large and my faith walk, in light of this painful setback. When all you can do is word search puzzles and endless HGTV and HULU re-runs, your brain turns to mush. Even typing is no fun – this will have to be short because the pain is peeking through the medication. Ugh. It has lessened my social media time and presence, to be sure. This whole experience, with my wonderful husband by my side, has helped bring some clarity. First of all, we both need to invest in our health. I want to be there for my grand babies. I love them so much and don’t want poor health to keep me away from them, or for me to die before we get to make some memories together. And I want a better quality of life so my hubby and I can move on into our retirement years, enjoying patterns of taking off in a trailer and fishing, or hiking the amazing mountains here. Or be able to garden and walk the dog. And so, we are both taking steps, in consultation with the wellness team we are assembling around us, to take our future into our own hands. We are being pro-active to getting healthy. And that feels so positive in this sea of stupid pain. Seriously ridiculous.
All of this is a parallel to what we all need to be doing in our walk with God. We need to be pro-active at seeking Him out where He is, and He is waiting, all around us. We need to heed the whispers of His Holy Spirit moving in our lives. We need to make changes if we are not responding in a life-growing and life-giving way. We need to be present. We need to show up. We need to forcibly take back our faith and make it our own. We need to drown out the static and noise surrounding us. We need to back away from the insanity in the world of pandemics, riots, and politics and just chill. Sometimes when you have a physical set back, God allowed it to slow you down, to still you so you can hear His whispers. I am listening, Lord. In through the waves of pain; the fog you get as intense pain is with you 24/7, the Lord is quietly whispering, “Come to me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke on you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and you shall find rest to your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-29)
I’m moving, very slowly, in the right direction. Stopping to smell the roses and contemplate how life is, how it should be, and how we are going to get there is a re-set so many of us need in our lives. So I am blessing Him in the rain…in the pain…in the daily…in all things, Blessed be the Lord. Amen.